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How should I put it?

My inner child felt magically healed by this mere innocence and naivete?

The concept of dirt getting me inspired to touch one because of its therapeutic constituents especially being induced by stress.

We are always depress in different ways but still get the same symptoms. Suffering the same, disease, illness, complications, experiencing malady especially upon our souls. Lethargic spirits which only to be cure by a simple therapy. Nature.

It is so funny that people inventing and spending a lot of ways to cure their symptoms with synthetic procedure, without considering that we already grasp some natural remedy all this time.

A lot of people stressing the thought of grief, pain and ennui. This excuses keeps them from being frozen-ground. Unable to move forward since they thought that this burdens weighing them. But it was all about mindset. Someday, you will realized that nothing is permanent in this world, even death would be consider a temporary slumber of our spirit after the ardous adventure that we've spend time endeavoring on earth. So, why dwelling upon sadness and gloomy stuff when you could blow-out and exhaust yourself with contentment and happiness of what you have?
 
Mr. Archibald Craven was just like that person. Along with his son, Colin. Not just the Craven's but also Mary Lennox. Everyone was consumed by loneliness and negligence.

Loss? Naturally. The only way to fully recognized happiness, is too embrace the concept of death.

Plants die but most of its were perennial. Although still, humans cannot be replace, especially if it's someone belongs to your heart. That someone is truly irreplaceable.

She died. Sometimes, I hate her for doing it.
~ Colin Craven

But for one thing I've learned, that life was full of dirt and nothing is permanent. The seedling would gradually bear it's fruit and the flowers will took it's full bloom, and here I am smiling and free from anxiety because Francis Hodgson Burnett have teach me of what is important from most of all; care to the people who had left behind, alongside with me--to acknowledged the love of the living and not be blinded by grief. And to live in order to carry the memory  someone I'd cherished. 

Because all I can say, being too negatively glum and pessimistic could affect the people that surrounds you. Particularly if they care for you--well, atleast they care but you shouldn't get ahead of yourself for it is truly bothersome for them (more like, I was advising Mary Lennox, the boy Colin, his father and myself too!). 

So stop being gray. Brush off those monotony. Go out for a sunshine, touch some earth and appreciate the magical environment of your creator! And how it is utterly wonderful to live for once! And you should be grateful! 

I was always reacting with children's story. From the moment I'd read this passage ; Everything was strange and silent, and she seemed to be hundred of miles away from anyone, but somehow she did not feel lonely at all---, I'm already convincing myself I had strucked-gold. 

I don't care if the adults wouldn't enjoy the flow pf this book, because for me, I was over the clouds. It is healing, sweet, poignant, melancholic and vivid tale of earth's wonderful things to offer! 

Plus, I've always wonder either I can also have a sunny boy Dickon who would shed the light of my grievance path of dimmable life. 

Know that I am built up of death from head to foot and that it is a corpse that loves you and adores you and will never, never leave you!
~ Erik, The Opera Ghost

I don't know. I'm not quite sure about this book being celebrated as the most eerie and haunting horror genre of Victorian era.

I wasn't horrified by the unsightly and disfigured Opera Ghost, Erik. Nor I was bewitch by the beauty and unearthly voice of Christine Daeé. Not even the whelp, aristocratic and noble status of Count Raoul de Chagny gotten my interest.

It was Gaston Leroux literature potency that highly catch my amusement.

I just couldn't stop laughing. It was like satirical, full of wits and humor--I almost forgot it was a gothic romance and a tragic drama. It had truly entertained me at the very end and I'm very glad that I pick up this book with my mother during our shopping!

Every characters seems obviously intended to be comical. I was always thrown-off by my chair laughing by their foolish decisions. Each and everyone of them was lovable for being too ironic, contradictory, sensitive, obsessed and curious. I should probably not snickered myself like a grinning cat while reading the story, since we all know it had a melancholic, somber and lamentable ending. Truly, a bittersweet delight for O.G.

Seriously, even the author got a slang for the ghost. I'm laughing like almost, I am mocking the character but no. I'm not. I don't want to insult his overly-affection towards the damsel who were totally a damned as well for being too naive and stupid. Here as well Raoul, the man with great disposition and unrequited love for his childhood friend--who had insisted so much to chase the woman only to be entangled with foolishness and dread. And Daroga, The Persian could've done any better to prevent all of those mishaps, but still he was a key character to let the whole plot falls unto success.

Love is the most exquisite kind, the kind which people do not admit even to themselves. .

Love cannot be force. .

When he cannot force his love but he gets what he want in the end and be contented to point of committing death.

It was like, I could finally die with happiness. Like seriously! All of those stunts, crime and murder he'd pulled, all of the terrible things he had done to the theater, all this time, he had only wanted was a peck of a kiss from a girl! And even if it's just in a forehead, he was exulted with euphoric state that deliberate driven him to suicide! How priceless for a wish! It's iconic.

The story somewhat justified that the physical appearance of a person will strained the opinions of our judgemental society. It seem ugly people doesn't deserved to be loved just because of their marred countenance, disfigurement and lacking of aesthetics.

But O.G clearly fights for his rights to be acknowledged for what he had, not for what he look. He just yearned to be loved by someone. To be appreciated by someone without disgust and ill judgement. He just wanted someone to adore his soul, not his physical wretchedness.

The only the thing that he had finally felt love rather than his obssession, was the day when someone accepted for who he was. He sets her free in order to declare that his happiness lies to Christine's happiness even if it's that happiness was being with someone else.

The ventriloquist king was truly satisfied.

And all I can say for his Majesty, Long Live The Opera Ghost! 

An autobiography of Britain's one the most notorious gangster ever lived. 

Ronnie Kray was settled in Broadmoor that imprisoned criminally-insane individual. He and his wife, Katie Kray has a peculiar relationship of marriage for 3 consecutive years and ended with a divorce before his death on 1995. 

But it wasn't about two couples being inloved in an ungodly rendezvous and Kate's visiting a prisoner. Before he died, Ronald Kray speaks about his deathbed secrets during his lifetime career, killing, money laundering and drug dealing for ages. Including his homosexual affairs towards a member of political party and his fixation about young black kid during his imprisonment. Additionally the assassination of George Cornell that mystified police authorities for decades without tracing the 9mm gun as the murder weapon.  

All I could say, I could not agree how Mrs. Kray tolerated his husband debauchery and even becoming an accomplice that running some few errands under his order. I was surprised that she never gotten herself into prison. 

But without her engagement with this criminal, things were clearly dragged into the limelight. I don't know if some of the passages where being confirmed as legitimate and her claims regarding with her associates with Ronald Kray's fellow convicts. Some chapter are a bit inconceivable and a bit enigmatic. 

It was too tense when Ronald Kray threaten to 'erased' Kate Kray, if she did something funny like separation when ironically, he is the first person to encouraged  her signing the papers of divorce. 

I couldn't put down the book for a reason. The choice of words are simple and everyone could possibly comprehend what the story implies. It was delivered well, even a 19 year old without a violation record could understand the message. Although, it is still unbelievable for me that such transgressions like murdering people could be compared to a simple livelihood of selling kwek-kwek and kikyam at the sidewalk. 

How could Kate Kray indulged those blood money? How could she had lived for all those death-threats and harassment from Ron's adversary? I have a lot of questions from the book. I wanna contact Mrs. Kate Kray for some reason. But I don't know if she was still alived. I hope she was doing well, as well as the relatives of those fugitives and prisoners. 

Even those people were blood-stained criminals, I simply put my sympathy out of the box. They were humans after all. 

Additionally, the neurosurgical study of Oxford University peak my interest. I wonder what have they've discovered of Ron's 2lbs 8oz brain. Is it truly possible that the grey matter cells of the brain are capable of releasing certain chemicals that drove this notorious people to commit immoral behavior and crimes? 

The Judge Samuel Stafford is dead! And it was not illness but poisoning! Another murder case was about to commence by the hands of Inspector Thomas Pitt with his wife, Mrs. Charlotte Pitt who happens to be also at the scene of the crime which from the boxes of the theater.

The death of the judge was under suspension with his involvement and might positively link from the 5 years ago case of murder in Farriers Lane.

There was a rawness in the air, heat of emotion that is dangerous when one is trying to pursue justice.

It's risky. Specifically, when you might uncover secrets,  illicit affairs, tormented past--that some other people are willing to take immoral conduct, sold their souls to the devil, just to conceal and remains it dignified reputation.

The following suspects who might kill Samuel Stafford:

• Juniper Stafford. Of course, the wife of the man would not be an excused for not being suspected with such debauchery especially whe she was having a  passionate affair with someone else. 

• Adolphus Pryce. A Queen's Counselor and Juniper's whom secretly affair with. 

• Tamar Macaulay. A theater actress and a Jew who had a brother that she believes with indignation, been falsely prosecuted and accused of murdering  Kingsley Blaine. She was being persistent with Samuel Stafford to re-open the case which this is also the reason why she's being one of the suspects of poisoning the man because she have a lot of motives to do so. 

• Joushua Fielding a fellow theater actor of Tamar Macaulay to which the widowed Mrs. Caroline Ellison recently fancied. He was also suspected by killing Kingsley Blaine and falsely accused Tamar's brother, Aaron Gudman. But the charges were rejected when no further evidence assisted to corroborate such claim. Yet, he might also be a potential suspect of poisoning for considering the fact that maybe he doesn't want the judge reopening the old case from 5 years ago. 

• Devlin O'Neil. A business man who marries Kingsley Blaine's widow. He was also suspected for killing Blaine for engaging a disputable romance between Kathleen Harrimore. 

• Judge Livesey. A fellow worker of Judge Stafford and a friend, whom also involved with a close case of Farriers Lane murder. He was suspected for fearing competition and coveting higher position upon the law, by eliminating Judge Stafford as a threat. Yet, this is all assumptions. 

• Adah Harrimore was a racist and a fascious character that has discriminatory remarks and juxtaposing approach upon the Jewish community. She was a mother of Prosper Harrimore, who was born for having deformity and superstitiously blaming his unfaithful husband's affair with a Jewishess.

Among the following names descripted above, only one person I've suspected correctly! And it is the first name that came upon my mind when he suddenly stride and approach the scene with an obvious rigorous behavior. He gives himself too much away especially when he was directly found-out at the specific crime scene of Officer Paterson. He seems like to point-out other affairs as well and suggested to investigate Adolphus Pryce and Juniper Stafford secret romance. He was full of criticism and excuses with himself all the time. 

Meanwhile this second individual was a bit subtle but the first time that he appeared in the scene, he was the memorable one because of his presence. Although, it wasn't enough for me to convinced he was a different case of a suspect. 
 
This is my first Ms. Anne Perry's mystery and it was an excellent choice. Her finely drawn characters was convincing that couldn't be more comfortable within customs and sensibility of their historical period - New York Times Book Review 1993. 

The deep Victorian atmosphere will make you drawn to its life and reality. It was such an 18th centuy ride of exploration, deduction and knowledge. It wasn't as prose nor dull, it has a sense classical literature with a rhetorical choices of words and the old men's philosophy combined. It speaks about rules and injustice, feminism and misogyny, racism and prejudice, discriminatory and unfairness upon the systematic laws and among the others, the flaw of a man. 

Plus, I didn't expect Mr. Oscar Fingal O'Flahertie Wills Wilde, the Father of Queer and the author of many acclaimed novels and essays in the world of classical literature including his Dorian Grey and the one shot story The Nightingale. I felt ecstatic when the author made him an entrance and knowing he would contributed of solving the crime! What a lovely surprise!

Sakamoto-san had a bounty in his head! And assassin from different part of the country started to throw daggers for the price of his life!

I admired the chivalry of Shin and Lu when they were protecting the peaceful holiday of Sakamoto's family until dawn. But I was shock when teddy bear Sakamoto lose calories in an instant when he was showing his potential against Boiled! What a turn of events. So, he wasn't that purely serious when he is in a fatso mode? 

They even feature's Lu having a drunken master style references while fighting off with Obiguro. 

And this mysterious X was introduced in the scene who seems to be the one behind the price over Sakamoto's head. What on earth is this guy up to? Who is he? 

By the way, the line up of the Order being featured was too dope and bad-ass. Like it never gets old everytime a cool and new characters gotten introduced. But Shishiba was just too brutal with his chef just because of onions, yikes. He really despised it. This Osaragi gal hits different as well, too cute yet disturbingly ominous due to her non-chalant presence, but I bet she would be deadly over the course of the series releases--and I'm simping for her. Then we all know, every team has this infamous-muscle-meat head giant, Hyo. Like yo! What's up! 'You wanna piece of me?' HAHA. Then the tricky-clown yet dangerously over confident with his skills and talent, Nagumo. Jeez! I really like this guy but I like Osaragi more with her dark veil and black french skirts. Order reminds me of John Wick Saga once in for all like the Above The Table & Under the Table vibes. I thought the assassin's were villains but they've maintaining peace as well yet through underhand tactics like killings and murder with their sole target on sight. 

Yet! I'm still figuring out what's gonna happened next! Sakamoto would never ever gonna moved-on with his past if it still chasing him! 

Taro Sakamoto was a legendary hitman, feared by villains and revered by assassins. When one day, he fell inlove. Married. Family. Fatherhood. Gaining weight. He decided to retire and lived an ordinary life being a store manager with his wife and daughter.

Until, his dismal past keeps threatening him to comeback and the lives of his loved ones could potentially be drag into the pits of danger. Once again, he took back in action when things started to stir once in for all, in the name of protecting the people he cherised, he is willing to throw himself in the face of evil, harm and blood.

This manga wasn't your typical shounen jump series--because it wasn't a shounen category. And everyone was already hyped by this retired old dude. 

Sakamoto-san was tubby and I prefer him to be like that. I think he is more awesome in such figure than being masculine and thinner. Reminds me of John Wick or Jason Statham in action but bulky like Thor in Avengers: Endgame (2015)--still cool and bad-ass despite the adipose tissues bulging--if you get the gist. 

Her wife was so fined and a total green flag! What an immense of loving and understanding woman he had possessed. Truly, no wonder Sakamoto-san was head over heels for her. 

Shin, he was a typical shounen and a good guy. A clairvoyant who can read minds huh. I really thought, supernatural wasn't involved in the story but it's okay it was still a total riff of bad-ass people with dope of action. Lu Xiaotan was a chinese immigrant who inherited her family treasures and heirloom after beating up that Bacho guys, and becoming an ex triad after Sakamoto hired her for being a store clerk with Shin. And things becoming more chaotic after that. After one another characters was also introduced, including Nagumo, my new biased. UWU! 

It was funny, comical and truly entertaining! 

I am still boggled which of which is the lucky paradise they've refer?

Funny thing is, I find myself praising the ability of the characters for having a different level of self-awaresness about their toxicity. All of the gayish hypocrisy that keeps me feeling the thumps and ba-dump in my fujoshi-heart. I just can't get enough of how this couple having misunderstandings, arguments, obsessions, devotion, narcissism, masochist and a little bit sadistic displays--and I can't believed I find this amusing as an entertainment. I was having a little bit of exhilaration just by watching everyone suffers from the complicated feelings they've possessed. The way they were all naive and bad at making decisions. Welp, can't blame for my best bl buddy who recommended this one for experiencing a total degrading level of stress, angst and anxiety lol.

Lucky for me, I wasn't affected by their dilemma. Surprisingly, I didn't find myself contemplating about it after finishing the manhwa unlike Killing Stalking. Which is darker than any uke's h*le and orifices. Yikes.

A story between four lovely sisters who were about to face a predicaments and struggle they didn't wish for.

It was my second book from Mrs. Steel. All I could say, The Gift  was a bit better than this book. Sisters was way too repetitive like how everyone's pov was paraphrase all the time. We know it's tragic, it was sad and hopeless, we get it. It wasn't necessary to repeat the same thoughts all over again. Readers would typically fed up by how things turned out. Honestly, it was poorly written, I felt like I'm reading a 7th grade schooler essays. Maybe Mrs. Steel run out with ideas that's why she's lumping all of the following stuff in a so-called manuscript. 

This book could spark certain debates regarding with how unrealistic the standard of the woman being written and portray. The girls were beautiful and drop dead gorgeous individuals who could knock-out the vouge and runaway magazines--which is what we expect on a typical and fictional romance? They get the guys, swooned by their handsome features and charisma, a good-background, interesting standpoint and wealth. Men that doesn't exist in the first place. 

People here were too rash at making decisions and choices as well. Some were absurd and pretty obvious that it will go down to drain yet still picking that pathetic options and such. 

Although it was all predictable til' the end, I was still sympathetic from the misfortunes and problems they were experiencing. It was relatable at some point. The loss that bares the pain of those who were left. Lossing things seems natural but still it hits different when you were attached to it. When you dwell and cherished something more valuable like a behalf of your life and then suddenly, I guess the universe doesn't want to make you happy so they took it away from you? That dilemma that I could never withstand. 

But what makes really scary for me, is that they've moved on, everyone was moving on and they forget those things like it never happened. Am I afraid of being forgotten? I guess so. But I dunno why. I think it doesn't matter anyway since things passed by like a running river. 

Even though the book was poorly written, I could pick 2 or 3 lessons that I would probably apply with myself. 

I wouldn't be here if it weren't for my freaking GBFF suggesting this PTSD-response sh*t. 

The plot was cliche, although it was unnervingly surprising like the betrayal was just a slapped across my face. I even regretted the minute I've felt the giggles and giddiness just by watching Zhenya and Kwon Taekjoo taking a leapt upon romance and steamy scene. And then, the bomb dropped and I died from that. I hate every fiber if his bones, every bit of his flesh, every singles strands of his hair, every bit of his existence I wanted it to be wiped out of my sight! Zhenya you bloody mongr*l piece of sc*m!

'Walang mangyayari kung walang magsasakripisyo'

Set in an apocalyptic age of a futuristic novella, people had created a new civilization underneath the earth after the destructive and horrible cataclysmic event that almost wipe-up the entire humanity.

Kahon, was a new profound world that was created among the predecessors of such unfortunate event. Yet, a new rule was established to marginalized its community through their skills and capabilities and different positions to occupy the three existing compartments of the Kahon: Upper floor, the Bughaw from where the heads and higher ups dwells, the middle part, the Hiraya - it is where the specialist and scientist conduct laboratory research to maintain the condition of the Kahon and lastly the below, Balwarte - the common people lives, the pits of lower class and the one whom most likely to experienced  mistreatments, slavery, continues murder and violence. Some even died due to recurrence of diseases and illness without medical attention.

Leo, a common slave from Balwarte, was abhorrence towards the oppression they've received from their higher-ups, treating them nothing different than a slaughtered animals. He was fueled with rage to abolished the current corrupted system and recklessly determined to leave the god-forsaken world along with his friends when his only hope was extinguish after realizing that he was leading themselves towards demise instead. 

His life even turn upside-down when Megan, a variant who was able to manipulate invisibility, out of nowhere dropped The Project Pandora at his pocket when she was chased by the Commanders after stealing such valuable item. Knowing The Pandora holds perpetual powers and destruction to anyone who made possession with it thus Leo was just constituted forcibly to be entrusted with such destructible powers. He couldn't grasp the situation until he just woke up having the Pandora entirely engaged and circulated around his system. However, how can Leo able to withstand the chaos, mayhem, betrayal, morbid and guilt after receiving the weigh of his responsibility by possessing such supernatural potency when bloody path only awaits him along the way?

I underestimated the author. I have never actually that kinda surprised until I've finished reading the whole book. It's impressive with the exclusion of grammatical errors and spellings. But overall, the plot was nice. Reminds me of Maze Runner (2015) & Escape (2013), thus the themes of 1984 by George Orwell & Charlotte by PA Works with semi X-MEN vibes. The claustrophobic and intense feelings mixed up being downcasted and depressed knowing one of my favorite characters was exterminated just that easily without remorse?! And the betrayal that no one had wish for (not to brag, but I've already predicted regarding with this part, uwu) and yet I was just keep asking whose the real villain of the story? The Cabeza who rule, manipulated this people for ages but also maintaining the life inside the Kahon which offer temporary safetiness among its people? Or Dr. Pax who wanted to be free, at the same time letting those non-variants roam on the surface but to what extent when Leo finally able to comprehend that Dr. Pax was also wrong because of the consequences they have to face if they go out?

Reminds me of Thanos; No matter how good you are nor your intentions are, you were always be a villain in someone else's story.

And Lesson learned; thou shalt not trust strangers!

"Just suggesting, viva books should preferably edited their manuscript before publishing their works because all I can say the structure of the story sounds too hideous and cringed but I like the story much enough. I found myself enjoying it until the last pages and I couldn't get enough! I want book 2! Applause for Llorin who shared such astonishing show!"