See and April

Wow. This story has all the feels. Beware- about halfway through you will feel the tension in the book rising and it will take some time to get through it. Always hate for the books to end.

In summary: Abusive, immature, asshole politician falls for doormat barista law student.
I'm not into self-righteous men who slut shame women and threaten them with violence. I wanted to DNF at 49%, I reluctantly finished, but rooted against Sebastian and April the entire time.

Fuck this book. This was a major T.L. Swan miss for me.

3.5 chili pepper spice, I guess
2 stars because I enjoyed all the references to the other T.L. Swan characters throughout

Some real fucking gems that Sebastian says to April:
-"Are you deaf, dumb, or just plain stupid?"
-"Get out of my house, you lying whore"
-"Go near my son again and see what fucking happens to you."
-"Touch me again and see what fucking happens to you."
-"She smiles sarcastically. "Hit me. I dare you." I turn my back to her because if I don't, that's exactly what I will do."
-"We can't stop, once we start" Sebastian to April (referring to her first time trying an@l)

Like, are we fucking serious??? Skip this book.

*** Trigger ⚠️ there are very dark and slightly disturbing scenes that involve BDSM nature. Do not read if you don’t enjoy dark smut romance.

Dang! This book was smoking hot!! It was an intense and extremely dirty read. It had so many emotions flying around that I didn’t know to be mad, sad or glad.

Sebastian is a very intense character. I believe his personality is the darkest of all the men in the Mr. Series. He has some serious baggage that has created this darkness that is ingrained into his DNA.

April isn’t so innocent herself. She is one tough cookie though. She is bullheaded and very independent, but when it comes to Sebastian, it is like she loses all strength.

These too have a very volatile relationship. They fight horribly. But they have the most intense chemistry ever. It is electric and oh so sinful.

I have thoroughly enjoyed this series. These are some straight up Alpha, dominating men. I think T.L. Swan has just made my yep five favorite smut romance authors.

There's a lot to unpack here but im just happy I finally finished one of her books.

I can't decide which was funnier, the horrible Spanish lines or when she asked a man named Garcia if he was Italian

2.75/5 stars
The disclaimer for this book showcases the story perfectly. I loved Mr. Masters & Mr. Spencer, but I found the pacing of this book to be a bit off for me. There is a 6 year time jump fairly early on in the book, and there is so much on again, off again, I hate you, I want to love you, don't leave me, get the heck out that I kind of got whiplash. This is an age-gap, second chance romance, but halfway through this book I was questioning whether are not these two should be together at all.

Positives: Happily Ever After, Dual Point of View, Spice

Weirdness aside, I did finish this book fairly quickly, despite it being over 400 pages of weird, and it did get me out of my reading slump. I've read a lot of TL Swan and the best piece of advice I have still applies with this book: don't read too much into things and just take them for what they are, you'll enjoy them more that way!

Both of the MCs can be annoying sometimes, but I love them. Hmm

This book epitomizes all the things I dislike in the T.L. Swan books that I have DNF’d.

The on again off again, and overall back and forth between the two characters was exhausting and significantly annoying by the 30% mark. By, the 50% I wanted to chuck my iPad in the trash and rinse my brain out, but nevertheless I persevered—and skimmed the remainder of the book to see how they finally ended up together.

I didn’t like either of the main characters—both were so self destructive and un-relatable to myself at least. I hate that April would willingly volunteer herself to the capriciousness and volatility of a fucked-up relationship with Sebastian. I would have just cut my losses and moved on…seriously, that can’t be healthy. April and Sebastian know they’re both self sabotaging, but refuse to try harder to be better for each other—that speaks to a pretty unstable foundation for a relationship.

When April said she would give up anything, including her job, for a relationship with Sebastian, that’s when I truly called it quits on this one and skimmed to finish. Why would you do that for a clearly relationship-unfriendly dude?? These two should not have ended up together.

If you’re looking for a better T.L. Swan book to read over this epically hot mess, I would recommend the Miles High Club series which have much better storylines and likable characters.

I did not like this series at all. They were poorly written, the smut scenes are almost the same word by word, very repetitive and not creative.
Pretty average books