astilbe_225's reviews
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as an autistic 15 (almost) year old, this book was amazing. for years, i was so confused on why people treated me like i was some sort of different species. how they called me odd, weird, or called me a crybaby because panicked when i couldn’t complete schoolwork. i only found out that i had autism when i was 11, but even then, i spent years not knowing about autism because i had only one autistic person i knew in my life, who’s nonverbal.

even though im not in their demographic (parents), this book taught me that what i do is *normal*. it really taught me about what autism actually was, and after reading this book i felt the happiest i ever felt in my own skin, and finally i felt accepted somewhere. 

even if you’re not a parent of an autistic child, i recommend this book for everyone who wishes to learn more about autism. ignore those shitty organisations like autism speaks, this is where it’s at.

thank you for publishing this book. thank you to everyone who wrote an essay. thank you to everyone that contributed. you quite literally changed my life /pos

i am not sure how to feel about this book. mona’s books always make me feel like that, but this is a different feeling to bunny. a different type of confusion that just spawned from me not liking the book that much.

at first? enjoying it. it wasn’t a 5 star, but it was still something i liked. i loved the eeriness, slight creepiness, and the unsettling feeling that mona made. it made it so hard to read but it made me go on and on because i wanted to know what happened next and how it would resolve.
however, i felt it got a bit predictable? in part two especially, i felt like i could predict what happened next and i would be right most of the time. that wasn’t a huge bother though, because i knew it would pick up in part 3.

and it did. in the wrong direction. in part 3, i was just cringing at almost everything. i would cringe at every mention of hugo (since i just didn’t like the relationship, miranda would mix hugo up with paul so many times and yet he didn’t really ask about it all that much?), and a lot of things that happened in chapter 3 i just did not like. and i don’t even know how to describe it since this is like bunny where i have no idea what is going on at the end. 
that could’ve just happened because i was skipping whole chapters though. there was some parts that i just did not want to read because i just didn’t like it. 

though, i feel mona definitely got what she wanted across. people ignore pain. they act like you’re pretending. we just don’t *believe* it. and i’m not even sure what i’m supposed to say. people do that, i guess? we shouldn’t do that? that’s kinda obvious that we shouldn’t do that but i am just brain empty.

i guess this is a 3? i guess? maybe?
i don’t know. i don’t know anything anymore.

i listened to the audiobook here as i was reading. it’s good, check it out; https://youtu.be/GuyEaMdcwWU

frankenstein is a novel about loneliness, and how we need social interaction to thrive. how relationships are just as important as food, water, and sleep. what we will do to protect those we love, or what we will do to just have those people in your life. for example, the crazy shit that happened in this novel.
or, well, that’s my interpretation of it anyway.
please applaud me this is the first time i’ve written something like this about a book

the aspect about loneliness and judgement, hit me personally. you experience a life of being judged, feared, seen as the villain. there’s no one that cares about you, and you feel lost, sadness. eventually, that turns into anger and hatred, as you reach your breaking point. you think you’re the problem. you start to take your anger out on others, or in some cases, yourself. 

this book is amazing, but not enough to give it a 5 star. the ‘thing’, despite what he did, was my favourite character. his story, how people hated him just for his looks, and how he evolved to *actually* being the monster people thought he was, due to loneliness and eventually, hatred for human kind (victor, in particular). 

talking about victor, i didn’t like him for the most part. which is why this isn’t a 5 star book. i found him annoying, but fortunately bearable. there’s not even much i have to say about him, my brain just associates him with ‘crazy dude who decided randomly that he wanted to create life randomly one day’.

overall, 4.5 stars. so close.

it was just meh. didn’t feel like going any further.

i think im too dumb to read this, i didnt understand anything