i am not sure how to feel about this book. mona’s books always make me feel like that, but this is a different feeling to bunny. a different type of confusion that just spawned from me not liking the book that much.

at first? enjoying it. it wasn’t a 5 star, but it was still something i liked. i loved the eeriness, slight creepiness, and the unsettling feeling that mona made. it made it so hard to read but it made me go on and on because i wanted to know what happened next and how it would resolve.
however, i felt it got a bit predictable? in part two especially, i felt like i could predict what happened next and i would be right most of the time. that wasn’t a huge bother though, because i knew it would pick up in part 3.

and it did. in the wrong direction. in part 3, i was just cringing at almost everything. i would cringe at every mention of hugo (since i just didn’t like the relationship, miranda would mix hugo up with paul so many times and yet he didn’t really ask about it all that much?), and a lot of things that happened in chapter 3 i just did not like. and i don’t even know how to describe it since this is like bunny where i have no idea what is going on at the end. 
that could’ve just happened because i was skipping whole chapters though. there was some parts that i just did not want to read because i just didn’t like it. 

though, i feel mona definitely got what she wanted across. people ignore pain. they act like you’re pretending. we just don’t *believe* it. and i’m not even sure what i’m supposed to say. people do that, i guess? we shouldn’t do that? that’s kinda obvious that we shouldn’t do that but i am just brain empty.

i guess this is a 3? i guess? maybe?
i don’t know. i don’t know anything anymore.