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Notes of a Crocodile is a textbook on college angst and societal alienation. To be queer, in love, and in Lazi’s own terms, “fucked up,” is to be vulnerable, no matter how many walls one puts up to protect oneself. The writing is poignant and emotional, occasionally bursting at the seams and becoming a bit excessive in it’s rawness. That being said, it resonates strongly, especially to college-age outcasts. The story is a joy to read, with so many emotions well encapsulated through descriptive language and metaphors that speak to the heart. The crocodile as a metaphor for queerness is not only clever, it’s beautifully satirical. This book is by no means the easiest read, and some of it’s lose ends and long confessional passages leave more to be desired, but it’s a masterful example of how to capture an era of life well.

Notes of a Crocodile is an incredible read. Crying, screaming, throwing up, Lazi is me on god (okay I’ll stop.) 

Unthinkable is a great peek into the human brain and it’s many intricacies. The book takes a compassionate and reflective approach to each case. The science in the book is accessible, and the reader is never made to feel like they’re stupid. The writing is well-done and very readable, although it doesn’t particularly stand out. There are a couple segments and chapters that feel disorganized; the structure changes frequently, which sometimes interrupts the pace of each case study. That being said, there’s not a dull moment in the book and each person’s brain explored is fascinating. The addition of practical applications and experiments for each brain anomaly is a great touch and makes Unthinkable an engaging read. The only other issue to note is more a personal one: something feels missing from this book. I think it could’ve been perfect with a more consistent structure, and within that structure a bit more research cited. This, and I believe it also would’ve been enhanced with a picture diagram of the brain, although that’s a very personal critique. Overall, the book is incredibly informative and accessible. I highly recommend it! 

No Exit is a face-paced, action-based thriller that delivers on its intensity but overstays it’s welcome.

The reader follows Darby, a wiry college student who finds a child named Jay locked in a car at a rest stop during a blizzard. It follows her journey attempting to save Jay and defeat her kidnappers. The intensity never ceases, and the author effortlessly hooks the reader into a page-turner. It’s very competently written with well written descriptions and vivid verbs that help the reader picture every grimy detail. Darby is a very loveable, complicated character and the way her quirks and problems are worked into the plot is very satisfying. The other characters in the story, while not as developed and at times a bit over-the-top (looking at you, Ashley), are fun to read about. There are twists and turns that are genuinely gut wrenching and surprising.

The Wanasho vs. Wanashono rest stop twist

The plot points and themes are cohesive and it feels like every detail actually matters. The story’s strength lies in its brevity and gruesome chaos.

There are problems holding it back, though. The story has plot holes that chip away at the readers suspension of disbelief (

nobody at the rest stop having an iPhone charger, Darbys mom finding an arm lump despite the cancer being pancreatic, the constant change in how much snow is on the ground [is it knee deep or barely drivable?], Darbys lack of side effects despite dangerous levels of caffeine consumption, many shots being fired in the room during the Lars and Darby fight then Darby refusing to fire one more shot at Ashley because of gasoline fumes in the same room, the cop somehow getting past the plow truck to then not see Jay or the driver and shoot Darby, etc. etc.

). Towards the end of the story, the plot becomes so excessively dramatic it loses its dramatic tensions. I found myself rolling my eyes when the final stand down became the next, then the next, then the next until the bitter end. 

Overall, this is a great thriller and an easy read. It’s imperfect but not irredeemable. If you’re looking for a fast and fun read with many dark elements, give this one a try. Just be prepared to exhale out of your nose in mild frustration a few times. 

Dark Matter is a sci-fi thriller with an infinitely intriguing concept - the multiverse. The reader follows Jason, previously a scientist, now a teacher, who is thrown into the multiverse by an alternate version of him.

This book thrives in its exploration of the self / the many selves. It tackles many interesting questions on how personalities, how people, develop - is it the sum of one’s choices? Is it fate? Is it a series of inherent qualities found within each person? Jason, a relatively average man in his iteration, explores himself thoughtfully and tragically throughout the story up until the bittersweet end. Dark Matter also thrives in its thrilling elements; it’s fast pace and brutal moments land well, making it a page turner. The action scenes are well written and entertaining, and at times quite emotional.

Dark Matter struggles in its character development, as Jason’s character, while decently rounded, seems to twist and fluctuate in unnatural ways to fit the plot. One moment he’s a rational scientist, the next he makes a rather unintelligent decision that leaves the reader frustrated (talking to you, plague world scene). Daniela and Charlie are rather one dimensional characters, and with the arrival of Amanda later in the story, there’s a bit of “man writing a female character” syndrome that slips through. It wasn’t unbearable, but it was noticeable. Personally, during the more character driven scenes, while they weren’t so poorly done to make me not enjoy them, I did find myself rolling my eyes a little. It’s also worth mentioning that some of the writing felt clunky and unengaging, which is to the detriment of the story. Many of what seem “plot twists” were rather predictable. Personally, the ending fell a little flat to me, but it did give me a slight sense of content and satisfaction for characters that I came to semi-love. 

Dark Matter is a solid, fast paced sci-fi thriller I’d recommend to anyone who is fascinated by the multiverse, the human personality, and seeks a quick and easy read. 

(CW) Don’t read this review if you don’t know anything about this book ; there will be lots of mentions of horrible taboos and horrific acts, specifically sexual violence. 

This is one of the most disgusting, predatory, uncomfortable, unacceptable, depraved pieces of literature I have ever read. I thought it was pretty good!

A Lolita-type novel from the female point of view isn’t unheard of but certainly less common than stories involving male predators (which, in fairness, does reflect reality), so this book brings an interesting (if disturbing) concept to the table. What keeps the book from being completely unreadable garbage or entirely rape-porn is…

1) Celeste as a character is not only intentionally funny and occasionally cracks jokes that have a tendency to make me nervously laugh then cringe, but her narrative at times is often so over the top and obsessive it becomes comedic. Her droning on about how fixated she is with the bodily fluids of teen boys is far from fun to read, but often becomes as funny as it is distressing because of just how relentlessly obsessed she is. Not to mention how much a MATERIAL GWORL she is, getting depressed over not having expensive skin care products in…well…spoiler situations.

2) There is important commentary on the way women are seen when they are predators vs how men are seen. Obviously men have a MUCH higher tendency towards predations, particularly when it comes to pedophilia, but there is far from an absence of women who prey on children and when they are outed, those why were preyed upon are seen as “lucky” or as if they “wanted it” much more than for those who were preyed on by men. There’s a really dangerous double standard in general, as when we see women so horrific acts it’s often much more of a spectacle. “How could someone so attractive do this?!” “I bet the victims wanted/enjoyed this. You know teen boys!” “Oh my god, a WOMAN sociopath?’ Unheard of!” And so on.

I do have critiques though. While in reading this book I obviously signed up for disturbing sexual content, I REALLY did not need to read multiple graphic scenes of statutory rape. One or two get the point across, and even then it still felt a bit too much.

Also, I do think the end of the book started to feel a bit rushed and messy, and Jack’s presence during the climax of the novel isn’t ever FULLY and TRULY explained in my opinion.

Overall this was an interesting read, but I feel a strong desire to take a shower and bleach my eyes now that I’ve finished it. I can’t say it horrified me or even disturbed me like it aimed to ; I more just felt uncomfortable and surprised at how over the top it is. I do recommend it though if you have the stomach.