Seriously dark yet thought provoking. Some parts of this are really hard to read as the overarching theme is, indeed, suicide as the title blatantly tells you but this doesn’t lessen the shock effect.
The way the book counts down to key events is intensely clever and feels very real and relatable as are the comments on life in general, especially he toxicity of working in an office and the repeating and familiar characters is spot on.
I found some parts really difficult to read but feel better overall for having done so, like exorcising personal demons, the book is really quite intense but hugely honest and examines the human psyche in a brutally honest way.
I loved the theme of Eli, one of the main characters never being able to finish anything and the intensely clever premise that he had a catalogue of first chapters of books he had started as an author. A real testament to human nature and our procrastination and the truth that some decisions, even the really obvious ones still aren’t easy to make and carry out. I loved the relationship that Jackie has and the vindication that actually she did love both of the men she was having relationships with at the same time, like isn’t always so black and white (no, this isn’t a personal confession!) Superbly written and rich food for thought, I know this one will etch itself into my subconscious for a long time yet to come. Thank you.