there are certain things about this book that i really loved. i think sarah rose has an amazing ability to say something punching, vivid, and visceral. for me, this book lacked the umph i wanted from it. i struggled with the Believers aspect, it felt too "oh i'm so different", which, coming from a white main character, i immediately got my year of rest and relaxation vibes. is it the same? no. was i reading it almost as though it was satire? probably yes. i will say i liked the ending, it gives you what you want. i guess? maybe i'll reread? maybe i won't???