I'm not sad, maybe I used to be or would have been, but now I can't be. Rather, I just feel like I've been defeated in a big fight; tired and broken. I just can't figure out - although I can understand the reason - why it had to happen this way. 

Tris, my brave Tris, has come a long way at such a young age (I've often forgot how old she is, and it's just so hard to comprehend how much she accomplished at just 16, something I certainly wouldn't have been able to do). She deserved peace and happiness so much, perhaps more than anyone else. This should not have been done to her. And I believe — and I know — that she would have become, on some level, Rin (The Poppy War) if she had had enough time to unfold. Tobias, lately I don't know where to put him in myself. Part of me feels sorry for him, and part of me doesn't understand the reason for his actions many times. I felt a little bit like this book just exists, it exists, but it doesn't have any real use outside of that. Peter, he's so weird, but somehow I still understand him so much. Christina and Cara are the corners of my heart, so does Uriah

(rather was, I can't believe they just let him die like that).

The plot was very draggy for me, quite boring at times, because pretty much nothing happened - or if it did, it didn't make much sense. The pace was slow, perhaps too much. The end - well, I'd better not talk about that. By the way I really liked Tris's mom diary entries and learning about her past, I would love to read a book about her.