Hi, devastating! What a brilliant read, it was wild how words on a page can make you sob and yell at made up characters for their actions. I mean it as a compliment when I say that this book made me feel so helpless and useless, I felt like I was tied up in a room with tape over my mouth trying desperately to return the connection I felt with these characters to have them make better decisions.

The burden of having a deeper insight than Amir into life in general, into the motivations of the people around him really made it all the more hurtful when he messed up. Amir is a coward through and through and you're left not wanting to root for him but being stuck with him, almost a mirror to how in life we are stuck with ourselves and it is ultimately up to us to become the people we want to see. Amir from the beginning admired other character's integrity and honesty but literally could not bring himself to be integral and honest when presented with the opportunity. It is not enough to be self aware, we must have the bravery to be better when we see our failings.