this book is all about the realities of a terrorist attack, and human instincts as they try to make it out alive. some are every man for themselves, some are too traumatised to notice anyone else, some try to help at first but run at trouble, some risk everything to help, and some sacrifice themselves. we all think we’ll be those last two examples and judge anyone who isn’t, until something actually happens to us. that’s when we discover that human instincts and morality are pretty fickle and complicated things after all

p14: i am on tender hooks waiting to find out what the terrorist attack is gonna be. also i’m liking this formatting, it’s different

p46: i have a sad feeling that ellie’s parents might be dead, and possibly violet’s too. cause yeah they probably wouldn’t make fresh orphans talk in an inquest immediately, but we haven’t been told how much time has passed. anything could’ve happened

p54: yeah no they don’t just float, you have to learn that too

p56: oooh new character, someone who can do something at last

p58: oh violet’s black. oh of course she is, i thought that from her last name, guess i just forgot since yesterday 

p67: it’s sounding like peaches has some kind of issue with most of the teenagers she knows 😅

p82: please God let it not be a shooter that picks up the phone

p92: violet. ellie. joe. peaches. that’s four. who’s the fifth?

p109: i just hope the shooters aren’t anyone they know, that would be even worse

p117: wait maybe the fifth teenager died 🥺

p139: oh i’d forgotten about moz for a second there

p149: the ominous language makes me think it wasn’t 😐

p151: this definitely didn’t end well

p204: shit ellie’s dad definitely knows something we don’t

p207: flip sake. i know the purpose of this book is to highlight the reality and variety of human interactions during traumatic events, but i swear if we don’t find out why these little shits are doing this—

p250: so

march

is definitely the fifth teen, question remains whether

he isn’t speaking at the inquest because he’s too angry and traumatised or because somehow they find a way to pick him off too

p262: poor violet always expected to know everything

p291:

MARCH IS OK HE’S OK HE’S OK THANK GOD…WHY’D YOU HAVE TO SCARE US LIKE THAT, ONLY ADDING HIS TESTIMONY RIGHT AT THE FLIPPING END

p298: oh my gosh imani 😭

i understand why we never heard from march earlier now

😭
p311: vi’s mum is a shining example of a mother's love and sacrifice

til the end. the ability to super humanly hang on long enough to ensure her child is safe

p335: i don’t even care anymore that

we never find out why

, i’m just so glad they’re mostly ok