this book made me feel a lot of things - anxious, disgusted, enraged -, made me read very fast like i haven't read in a while, made me annotate which i almost never did but the best thing about it is that it ended so well. the end was so bittersweet and yet it was so calm and pure. as someone who related to a lot of passages in this book - not specific moments or things that happened here, only passages -, i could really feel what our narrator felt and the end of it. i was scared, for the most part, of what would happen to the plot. my biggest fear was it being predictable and, gladly, it was not! "everything that i could see was beautiful. i cried and cried, standing there, surrounded by that beauty, even though i wasn't standing anywhere. i could hear the sound of my own tears. everything was beautiful. not that there was anyone to share it with, anyone to tell. just the beauty."...words cannot describe how happy i was when i read this last paragraph.