A review by nikkihrose
The Upside of Falling Down by Rebekah Crane

5.0

The odds that a plane will crash is one in 1.2 million. But that doesn't protect Clementine Haas from this rare occurrence. Instead, she ends up the only survivor – except she can't remember it. Or where she is. Or who she is.

All of her memories are gone. Her name sounds foreign to her and even seeing her father in the distance fills her with anxiety rather than comfort. So she runs.

Clementine refuses to adopt the life – or even the name – of a person she can't even remember. Introducing herself as Jane Middleton, she begs a kind stranger to take her away from the hospital where they meet, and to take her in for a couple of weeks. In fact, she dares him to.

A few hours away, at his cottage, she stays with him and his sister on the coast of Ireland. Kieran is kind and makes Jane feel safe, but she can't help the feeling that he's hiding something from her. There are too many secrets bottled up, and with every detail she manages to uncover, a million others remain hidden from the world. But how can she ask him to reveal himself to her, when she's keeping her entire identity from him?

Jane wants nothing more than for her memories of her life as Clementine, as a Clevelander, as a daughter, to return to her. But the more time she spends with Kieran in their own safe sanctuary, the more she realizes that if her memories come back, she'd have to leave her new life as Jane behind. This is a truth that Jane refuses to face – and when ultimately forced to, the question becomes which life she will choose.

While parts of the book stretch the realms of believability (i.e. a teenager with amnesia being able to escape and flee a hospital and remain hidden indefinitely), Crane's novel takes traumatic and life-altering events and transforms them into a love story impossible to run away from.