I adore this book! It made me feel all the things. I do think this book has the opportunity to be very polarizing though. The voice of the book is incredibly unique and the sense of double sided yearning is incredibly compelling. There are elements of this book though that I can only describe as “artsy”, like highbrow speculative fiction meets romantic poetry. The first time this happens is early in the book when a section of the book is told from Jay’s mom Sofia’s perspective. The second is the epilogue. While those passages should be incredibly out of place they were actually incredibly grounding explanations for the high intensity forbidden romance of the book. The high brow fiction thing shouldn’t work, but the fact that Marina makes it work here makes me love the book so much more. 

This book is pinnacle grumpy x sunshine down to sunshine Jay’s ADHD and grumpy Logan’s hidden family trauma and insecurities. The multiple POVs in this book were necessary for my soul to function. I love how Logan and Jay looked at each other and described their views even without knowing the other was just as obsessed. It does take many many chapters before we get Logan’s POV so just expect Jay’s uncertainty for a little while. 

I think I experienced every possible human emotion while reading this book, I will never be over how good it is. 

My only complaint is that despite Logan’s mom’s emotional abuse at the end of the book Logan still believes that she is demonstrating an acceptable form of love. While he forms boundaries, it hurt that he never acknowledged her abusive parenting as abuse.