this was a really tough read for me, punishing at times. it took me far longer than it should have. and it’s not necessarily fair to say it’s the book’s fault because the world got some pretty life altering news while i was reading this and it sort of fucked everything up for me. so did this book just not work for me or was my decaying mental health the issue? who knows! but i’m gonna put off reading the next 2 books for a while. **edit im back! ive read something else since i wrote this review and it’s the book’s fault!! i just didn’t like this book apparently!!