The book is just entirely internal dialougue of this girls thoughts, she moves through the motions of her life in a depressed state. She feels a range of emotions, all so heavy and pent up, yet she does nothing about it. Like Yozo, from No Longer Human, she is also a clown. She has complicated family relationships and connections to people that dont necessarily make sense. She is a lonely girl, who is not really a girl anymore as the novel insinuates the transition from girlhood to womanhood.

I think the book was good, but I think it could honestly be so much better. I wish the story felt less zoomed in, maybe told from a third perspective or a narrator that isn't the main character? I'm not sure. The feelings the character feels are very relatable and depressing.