if mansplain manipulate malewife was a book it would be this one...
i am seriously at a loss like idk where to begin this was a journey. i didnt think id like these characters at all but for some reason i do just a little bit.. like yea yea murder is bad whatever but idk they were sweet sometimes. julian went back to feed the dead guys dog like awwww what a dumbass. if all abusive people just dated each other the world would be a better place.
love the symbolism of julians scar and love this bit: "They wanted each other in the way of flesh wanting to knit itself together over a wound."
made me so sad once i realized julian isnt a complete asshole and pauls just an unreliable narrator with so many insecurities that he doesn't believe julian could ever love him without there being an ulterior motive... poor julian was working his ass off trying to prove he loved paul OMG