my heart 💔 my heart has been broken a million times during this series and this book, cue me sitting in misery the whole time. 

My first impression of the book was that it was filler - a lot of set up, context building, moving people to the right places so things can happen, but then… then I realized there’s so much more to it. 

For me, this feels like the book where everything shatters. Where they need to grow up and make tough decisions and learn that not everything works out and not everything can be fixed. And that there is heartbreak in everything, even the triumphant moments. It’s the awakening and reality check. It’s when we learn who they all truly are, where people’s priorities are, and what really matters. 

And Xaden and Violet, their interactions just continue to tear my heart to pieces. The love they have for each other is so strong, and watching Xaden give her the tools to kill him and basically telling her that it’s up to her if he goes bad… heartbreaking. It’s what no one wants to hear from their everything. But it lingers in every moment and every conversation between them now. 

Honestly? I’m glad the next book isn’t out yet. I need some time and space to breathe, work through this book, and prepare for the fallout of the next. 

On a side note, I have so many questions about Broccoli. 🐈🥦 Adorable, cute, what’s the point? How does this work?