I'll be honest, this was a beautiful portrayal of grief... to a point. It plays into how when you lose someone it can be a great struggle to let them go and the mind will go through constant hurdles to try to protect you. I liked how this element can spark discourse. That said, in the end, it just kind of made Eric look like a crazy person with major delusions.

It felt like many of the characters were there to create a plot that didn't contribute much to the story arc. The story seemed to lose what it was trying to do and had to desperately pull all of the strings together in the end in an attempt to make it make sense. 

The queer and BIPOC representation in this book was fantastic. It dove into the complexities of both in a modern urban US setting. I loved how it was done and addresses how queer BIPOC people can still hold prejudices towards people who they relate to. 

After finishing this book, I don't fully understand who/what Haru is. I thought I did but the ending just had me entirely confused. If you've read this book and understand the ultimate conclusion, I would love to hear it. 

In sum, if you are looking for a queer BIPOC story about grief this one could be perfect for you. It brings about a lot of important topics and guides you through how the stages of grief can be presented. That said, the story does kind of "get lost in the sauce" for lack of a better term, at times.