A review by taylorhathcock
If You Tell by Gregg Olsen

5.0

“I loved my mother because I didn’t know I had a choice. I had to love her.”

It's strange to rate a book like this and even harder to review it but I'll give it my best shot. It's a true crime story which I think once you read the horrific things that take place for a minute you struggle to wrap your mind around the fact that this actually happened. It's also hard to believe it happened for as long as it did. I spent a lot of this book just wondering how everyone could be so oblivious to what was taking place, but I guess that speaks a lot to human nature to stay out of other people's business. The book is very much focused on the terrible things Shelly did to her children and "friends" and it describes these things in graphic details. 
I think I appreciated that it didn't focus a whole lot on the police procedural stuff or the court stuff because really this was a story about three young girls who escaped a monster. It was them finally talking about the terrible things they endured. At it's heart the story shows what they were able to overcome and the various ways in which they coped with their situations growing up. I honestly struggle still with this book it left a huge impact on me and I don't know how to truly talk about it. I know that I experienced a roller coaster of emotions while I was reading the book and even once I finished it. This is one of those stories that I think sticks with you for a long time. It's also one that requires lots of breaks and self care I believe.