A review by laurreads
I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

4.0

TW: Please visit this link for in-depth trigger warnings. This book has a lot, and it isn't feasible to cover them all in a review. https://www.doesthedogdie.com/media/924488?index1=-1&index2=-1

This book was difficult. I give four stars because it feels wrong to give 5 (do you give 5 stars when someone who had to suffer like this? is that commodify-able?), but it also feels wrong to give less (she went through so much and wrote so beautifully about it). Jennette McCurdy went through things that no one should ever have to go through, and I'm glad that she wrote about her life. I don't know her, but I am proud of her. Jennette writes about a lot of things, but I can specifically speak to how well she wrote about eating disorders. I didn't know she was going to write about that (I mainly wanted to read it because I respect her as a person), and she wrote about it in ways that I haven't heard another person say out loud. I switched back and forth between the audiobook and the physical book and hearing Jennette McCurdy talk about her own eating disorders, experiences with grief and shame, her mental health, and so much more was powerful. I have a lot of thoughts that would "spoil" the book, and quite frankly, a lot of my thoughts are personal and relate to my own life. I think that this book is a great read and it will be worth your time, but reading this is not worth sacrificing your own mental health. I loved iCarly when I was young, and I hate that my love for Jennette McCurdy came out of something that (among a lot of other things) was ultimately so harmful to her.

If you are in your recovery journey (with grief, attachment issues, EDs, abuse, sexual assault, etc.), be sure that you can handle listening to or reading detailed accounts of these issues. There were times that I thought I would not be able to finish the book because I am on my own journey, but I managed to get through it. However, I know I have therapy soon so I can process my feelings through journaling and therapy. You may need to engage in self-care activities while reading this book, and I don't want that to shock anyone.

My only note is that you may need to slow the audiobook down. I got to a point where I was listening to it on 1.10x speed, but I listened to the majority of it on 0.90x because she's a quick talker!