I'm lost. My feelings aren't coping. I knew this would be an emotional read, but I didn't think it would be this emotional.

I'm not sure if it's because I didn't enjoy Daisy Jones and the Six, or I just didn't expect myself to get so worked up about it. Either way, this book wasn't at all what I was anticipating.

For example, if you know me, you'll know that I'm terrible with names. And I thought that'd have a serious impact on me remembering Evelyn's husbands since I thought there'd be an unmemorable one or two in there, since there's so many of them. And while I can't remember their names, every one of them played a pivotal role in the story and I can name how each of her husbands changed the course of Evelyn's life.

Also, the bi and lesbian rep was fantastic (as well as other lgbtq representation, those were just the main two). I was digging Evelyn's relationship with Celia the whole time and it breaks my heart with how it played out.

Plus, Harry was undeniably the best character. And Cooper deserved better.

And lastly, I loved how Evelyn's story was reflected in Monique's. The way that Monique was able to draw from Evelyn's mistakes, and how everything worked out at the ending, the way that their stories more than just had similarities was both amazing and heartbreaking.

I am not ok after that ending.