A review by katemc7
Exactly As You Are by Liliana Woodland

emotional hopeful mysterious reflective tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.0

I would say this was a solid 3 stars for me. The story had a lot of potential but fell a little flat for me. There were a lot of subplots happening that I felt didn't need to be included. I also had a hard time connecting with the characters and feeling their chemistry off page. I did appreciate the originality of the story and the challenges that Joan had been experiencing. I thought the author did a great job tackling that as I had never heard of that before. I enjoyed the side characters but couldn't tell if this was going to be a series where we watch everyone find their people. 

Joan is in a situation she doesn't know how to navigate. She had been broken up with again because of her challenges in the bedroom. Her therapist has mentioned that it may help to have someone that she trusts with her. But the only person she can think of is her best friend Lucas. But they have NEVER ventured into discussing bedroom stuff. Could she trust him with this? She decides that yes she can. She asks for his help. His patience as they navigate this together. She makes it clear that this will be a friends with benefits situation. No strings and going back to friends after. He surprisingly agrees. But what she doesn't expect is for her to feel THIS comfortable around him. She is pushing the limits on what she has experienced with him. He makes her feel sexy unlike anyone ever has. She also doesn't expect these feelings to develop. She finds herself wanting him all the time. Not just for his company but for his kisses for his touch. She has to remind herself what they agreed upon. Lucas has this potential job he might be leaving for soon. But she is caught off guard when she finds out he has already made a decision without her...even though she is supposed to be his girlfriend. She is reminded of his past dating experience and realizes she might have just been a fling to him. 

Lucas is on the other side of a breakup again. There is just something about him that makes it where he gets bored eventually in a relationship. Nothing seems to stick. Except for his friendship with Joan. But she is hiding something for him. She assures him it isn't bad. But he can't take it anymore. He has to make sure they are ok. Once she loops him in on what is going on he realizes how much he doesn't know about what she has been going through. He wants to take care of her. He is honored that she is asking him to be a partner in this experiment. He realizes that he now kind of has a thing for Joan. He is loving what they are doing in the bedroom but also his general feelings are expanding. He wants to be around her all the time. He just wants her. So when they decide to go official it's like this weight has been lifted from his shoulders. But then the past comes back to haunt him. He made a big life decision and didn't include her. And now he has to show her that she isn't like all the other girls before her. 

Like I said there was a lot of potential here but some side plots that were happening that got me confused on the focus of the story. And though I liked Joan and I liked Lucas I had a hard time processing them together. Their chemistry was kind of meh. 

I do want to thank Luna Literary and Liliana for a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review!