This is the sweetest story with the softest characters. Every chapter is full of hope and joy and aching pain. But as the book sais “Good things can be scary,” ... And sometimes they can be downright painful.”

Returning to Bellville for the holidays has been the highlight of my bookish holiday season for the past two years. The Christmas Daddies series brings this soft joy that is hard to describe.

In If Only In Our Dreams, a third Montgomery brother, Ben finds his happy ending with the closed-off superstar, Robin 'Trashmouth' Johnson.
Their meetcute on a plane back to Bellville is as sweet as they both are. Though none of them shows their soft side to just anybody.

Ben is the quiet and serious Montgomery brother who only shows his sweet side to his twin toddler daughters. But Robin brings out his 'teddy bear' side, making him incredibly soft for the fragile man.
Robin is a rocket artist with years of success and touring behind him. But it took its toll on him, and now he's bone-tired, burnt out, and lonely. He just wants to spend time with his brother and nephew, Miles and Bubba, before the holidays. But he finds peace in the arms of Ben and amongst the nosy and well-meaning residents of the small Vemont town.

There are many many sugary, sweet, heartwarming moments in this book. There are heartbreaking ones, too. Seeing Robin learning to trust and finally taking happy moments for himself ached in the best way possible. I am so happy for him. And Ben? Ben's been lonely, too, though he might not have realized it before. But caring for Robin, making sure he's rested and happy lit a fire under him, and it made me so happy.
Their slightly awkward, funny, and soft moments together literally destroyed me. How can they be so cute?
And spicy. Oh, the spice is spicing in this one, for sure. But like in life, they are the perfect match in bed, too, with an added layer of emotional connection.

I have to say, though, that the twins are the heroes of this book. Two four-year-old goth toddlers who roast adults left and right and are miniature mob-bosses of the swear-jar maffia. They are adorable and funny, and the way both Ben as their dad and Robin as their newest friend behaves with them melted my heart.

All in all, this book (and this series) is what I want when it comes to holiday romances. Sweet holiday moments, a dash of that holiday spirit, lots of soft moments, and a good amount of humour.

Give me more, please. I need Bubba and Jeremy's childhood best friends to lovers story like yesterday.