When I first started the audiobook and saw that the first section was over 200 minutes long, I panicked a little. But I immediately forgot about that once I got into the story and never noticed while reading. The book is written as a stream of consciousness mental letter to the main character, Kris’s, late wife. Kris is left raising their newborn alone. In this alternate world, instead of being imprisoned, law-breakers are given a shadow (or multiple) for their wrongdoings. The shadows designate them as outsiders and are a constant reminder of what they did. 

It was really interesting to read about how Kris navigated life with her shadow and as a new mom raising a daughter, who was born with shadows. This book is queer in the best way. Through a queer lens, we get to see how people are fighting back and even as they face homophobia, find community together. 

The daughter in the story is so funny. The mother daughter relationship we get to see form is great. We do see Kris struggle a lot though. Through alcohol abuse, depression, instability. 

After reading, I do still have some questions about the shadows. I don’t really understand how they keep people from committing crimes once you already have one. Or what effects they have on their owner. But honestly, it was a fun read and as long as you don’t think too hard about the mechanics, you will still enjoy it. 

Overally, I really enjoyed the narration style, found family, and showing up for each other.