Woweee, what a read! I loved this so much and genuinely think it has changed my perception of literature, life etc. dramatic words, but the rawness of this book and - the struggle - is real. KOK is not a very loveable guy by the end of it, but the flaws on show are very real, disarming, and human. Possible the best novel in the series, I was hooked and went on a real emotional rollercoaster with this one. His shame and his decisions are one thing, but the way he writes about how he understands his life and the relationships within it are so great and relatable. I really love it and the sense of struggling for this heavy dream of being a writer (often very selfishly) whilst grasping for meaning and meaningful relationships. Proper banger