i am horrible broken. i sip and lick all the chapters that involve the darkling because i terribly miss him and i thought my aleksander will last longer but just like him, maybe love is not for me, it will not always last. i know he's the villain, a terrible creature and a mass murderer but i still resonate with him. he's powerful, but alone. a lone creature in the vast world living in an eternity of lonesome life. and just like that, i know we are the same, i'm cruel and he's too, maybe we don't really deserve what we want because we're meant to suffer forever. if he had lived for an eternity, then i'll wait for an eternity. i know he would come back.