3.75 ⭐️ - I liked it 

Or so I think, at least. I'm a bit up in the air about it, because for the most part I really like the story, the gorgeous writing and the slight magical realism; but at the same time there are (outdated) things throughout the story that really drove me crazy and made me not love the book.

Such as the conversations around race and ugliness, and also as a chronically ill person the way the ending suggested that all illnesses kind of stem from the psyche didn't sit right with me. If at least that point didn't feel so much as general advice to the reader/listener, but more as something that spoke to Colin it would feel better. Because it is good advice to not scare yourself sick, but at least I felt it insinuated more people could get healthy if they wanted too, which isn't always true and can put a lot of blame on the victim.

All in all, I kind of wished throughout the entire book that was reading a reworked version of it, made to fit today's conversations better. I wished it didn't have the obvious racism and ableist beauty standards (read disfigured by Amanda Leduc if you're not sure what I'm aiming at). wished I had the same gorgeous storytelling, the same plot of the children finding each other and themselves, and the escapism without the infuriating small details that always brought me out of the story. 

Carrie Hope Fletcher did a fantastic narration job.

Many years ago I remember reading this book as a child and loving it, so naturally, once I remembered the joy it gave me, I read it once again. I'm happy to report after the fact that it still gave my present self as much joy as it did to my past self, though for vastly different reasons. As a child I enjoyed the story presented to me, the character growth, and the overreaching message of the happiness to follow in going out and enjoying nature - in giving back to our planet. I still love all these components, but as an adult I also appreciate the historical information given as well about how life was back in the late 1800's for different kinds of people, granted it was through a highly rose tinted lens. I could also appreciate the characters more and their plights, such as the loss and absence of parents, loss of friends and partners, and the terror and horribleness of large amounts of change - especially for a child. This exercise of just noting all these changes was an experience of joy and of seeing my growth as a person and a reader. Despite all this there was a component of this book that I didn't enjoy, and missed my first time through, which was the racist themes present concerning Indians and African Americans. While some may explain this away due to the time it was written, it still isn't an effective excuse and unfortunately ruined my experience of the book to an extent.

it is such a good story, too bad it is full of racism (and by too bad I mean fuck you Frances)

1⭐️

I’m logging this as a dnf because I heavily skimmed the last seven chapters and don’t feel like I can fairly count it as read.

I want parents who plan on reading this to their kids to read this review please. You’re absolutely allowed to read this to your kids if you want, but if you do, you need to have a conversation with them about how some of the themes in this book are wrong and offensive. Especially if you’re white or able bodied. (This review is by a white disabled person).

I loved the 1993 movie growing up and wanted to read the book for that reason, but wow this book was painful to read. Not only is it incredibly slow and repetitive but it’s full of racism and ableism. With classics I always go in prepared for problematic things so I wasn’t surprised that those things were in there, especially since the movie is very ableist as well. But it was so bad in the book.

                     The racism

I found it problematic that it opens up with a cholera outbreak in India, followed by some other comments about Mary always getting sick from having grown up in India. To me this implies the author thinks India is a dirty place full of sickness. Mary physically abused the enslaved Indians who cared for her when she was mad and treated them as if their sole purpose in life was to serve British settlers. Mary says at least once that Indians aren’t human, they’re servants. This is never corrected in the book at any point, by other characters or the narrative. Even after she learns to be nice she never seems to change that belief, unless I missed it. It’s kind of just dropped. There are also several racial slurs used casually throughout the book.

                    The ableism

I have scoliosis so it was both hilarious and annoying anytime Colin freaked out about feeling a lump in his back and cried over becoming a ‘hunchback’. He acted like it was the worst possible fate anyone could have. Which I’m sure was intentional because he’s a very dramatic kid, but it was still clearly coming from an ableist place. At one point they straight up say kids are better of dead than bedridden from illness or disability. And the icing on the cake is the scene where Ben Weatherstaff sees Colin outside and refers to him as crippled, then Colin and Mary are all offended that he dare say such a thing, and Colin proceeds to stand up for the first time to prove he’s ‘not a cripple’, and it was supposed to be this heartfelt, groundbreaking moment… Imagine how that feels for wheelchair users to read? It shows that able bodied people see disabled people as miserable and undesirable. (I re-watched the movie after reading and this scene is in the movie too). There was also a whole message about ‘willing yourself to get better’ and essentially saying that if you’re disabled all you gave to do is go outside and stop being disabled actually. Just try harder. There was absolutely no point to Colin’s whole storyline of being ‘fake sick’ and getting better. The overall message of the book is to be a nice person and you’ll make friends that way. He could’ve just been either able bodied, or better yet, actually disabled and never magically ‘cured’, while still learning to be nice and getting his happy ending.

I understand if you have sentimental attachment to the story, I still have an attachment to the movie even if it’s also very ableist. But it’s important to acknowledge these things, especially if you’re reading or watching it with kids. Personally it shocks me when I see people reviewing this book without pointing that stuff out. Lots of white able bodied people seem to be desensitized to these things, which is very concerning to me.

I've upped my rating from 2.5 because my son loved it when I read it to him 

I did love the descriptions of nature and the scenes were all set brilliantly. I found Colin and, to a lesser extent Mary, tiresome and Colin's story became very repetitive and drawn out. I would have loved more about Dickon and Mrs Sowerby but they were thinly drawn.  There was also unquestioned colonialism and racism particularly at the start which was horrible. 

I think perhaps Colin's grandiosity was meant to be written for laughs but it didn't work for me.