OH MY GOD! is my first thought after the book.

i ended the box sobbing as i underlined the last couple of pages with LITERAL foggy eyes😭 i think this book was written very well - especially with consideration that it’s a translation. 
its undoubtedly devastating; at times, bittersweetly devastating. there were times where there was a lot of hope for the character but were quickly washed away by an outlying scene. it’s a very reflective book and had me thinking a lot - which is why it got full stars. 
it’s pretty much an open-ended book. the narrators plot was a good ending—

but with kojima, it’s a little different. (still sobbing abt her btw) but my take on this is that kojima had to be left behind because she was full of suffering and pain. she was unable to exist and function without this pain, therefore was upset when narrator wanted to remove a factor of his pain; his lazy eye. they traumabonded and she wanted them to stay like that. but narrator chose otherwise by fighting against the pain; in this case, leaving kojima and removing his lazy eye.

ANYWAY BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL! side note; wish we had been shown the painting of Heaven but we work with it :>