In my opinion, the step-family taboo was totally unnecessary. This is a great story where things move forward and progress in a way that makes sense. But the taboo didn’t even really add anything to the story? 

so... yeah. this book.

i'm divided here.

fucking ALL 3 relatives that you live with during a long, frigid winter seems sorta cozy and cunty if you forget the relative part, but then fully having a child with your previously-nonverbal, brooding, abusive, weird, blood-drinking, feral step-cousin, is really cringe. just think of the family tree assignment this kid is gonna have to do eventually. (my grandpa is also my great-step-uncle and my mom is also my step-aunt? try explaining that to literally anyone without intense confusion and also judgement) this kid is gonna be at a family gathering and ONE DAY he will find out that she fucked multiple of his relatives. while step-family in this scenario and in this context (i.e., they're estranged, purely non-biological relations that reside in a completely different area and were never really thought of as family before tiernan's parents' deaths) really gets into the nitty gritty of "but didn't we just make this 'step-family' shit up? and isn't our 'family status' simply contingent on a marriage that is no longer relevant? what does a 'step-family' even mean when the family relation that put it in place is no longer intact?", it's still suuuper cringe. mostly, i'm secondhand embarrassed for tiernan. sure, let's fuck in a cabin all winter and ignore our responsibilities and the moral expectations of society. that's fine and dandy. but damn, the tabloids are gonna meme the fuck out of this and you'll never sleep again probably.

i enjoyed the sideplots, although they were super pick-me (i'M nOt LiKe OtHeR gIrLs, AfTeR a CoLd, HaRd WiNtEr, I dOn'T nEeD mAkEuP aNyMoRe, AnD i WeAr JeAnS aNd FlAnNeLs) and weirdly misogynistic and gross (omg beware of the townie guy with a SEX TORTURE DEN??? we will defend you with RIFLES and also DRIVING OVER A TON OF SICK MOTORBIKES??? okay... sure. i guess), they were at least interesting and kept the plot moving (and saved it from being straight-up porn).

additionally, don't tell me this man with selective mutism for like 15 years is gonna suddenly start talking. PLEEEEASE fuck off. as a psychologist-in-training, this feels messy and not actually how any of this would work in real life. and also, selective mutism after being left in a car for 4 days at the age of 4? maybe. possibly. but... idk. why didn't we get this kid a therapist? maybe that would have been good? idk though, who am i to say.

and why are we not only writing in books (which is fine but still suspect if we're not even writing book-relevant things and just writing diary entries) but specifically writing on the endpapers??? have you heard of a journal or a notebook bro? it's like $3 at the store. let me put you on.

see all those complaints and issues? despite them all (or because of them, who's really to say), I WAS ENTERTAINED. OKAY? i wanted to know what happened next, and the smut was slowburn enough to be semi-believable and gripping, and the details of the smut itself were not as cringey as the actual relationships between the characters (and that's a feat). while the premise of this was super sus, i had hoped to be entertained, surprised, shocked, enthralled, and this book was a straight shot of escapism to the veins. so thankful for my normal, not semi-incest relationship now. if you want a "what the fuck did i just read lol," and you're able to suspend your disbelief, this was pretty good. read at your own risk.

I don’t even know what page I stoped but the last thing I remember about this book is

her getting raped on like a car whatever by the one that doesn’t speak I’m so extremely disgusted by this book and people that rate it at all because there is a limit obviously if she consented to a bit of rough play or whatever kink it was there’d be no issue but anyone actively reading and enjoying reading rape right infront of their eyes and rate it you’re so abhorrent this book was nothing but disgusting they might not have been biologically related but the 40 year old man she has sex with is her uncle that is enough for me to not continue this book. Penelope Douglas you are disgusting anyone that enjoys this book and found it such a good read or whatever you’re all disgraces to society and you need serious help